The Toilet Bowl I Call Life

2007-03-18T23:32:00.000+08:00

1 Year in the making..

Hey guys! I realise that it's been a year and a half since i last posted.But you know lar.. life kinda has a way to keep you constantly occupied and shit so yeah i had no time to blog at all.Well hopefully now that i have chosen to leave most of my mental preoccupations behind , I will be able to blog more frequently.

I have decided to change things a little bit , rather than bitching and insulting people and telling people how terrible and dark and smelly life is , i'm gonna focus on the better and less smelly things around me.For those people who dont know i'm currently in Perth , Western Australia.Doing my Law Degree at Edith Cowan University and instead of living with 3 terribly disgusting and dirty Indonesian guys back at Bangsar , i've upgraded to living with 2 decent Chinese guys from Hong Kong ( apparently Hong Kong is neither a country or a state... but who gives a flying crap).I love it here though, it might get quiet during the weekdays but a little peace is good.How can I complain when theres 1 and a half hours of the simpsons every tuesday!

Perth needs a little getting used to , Asians are bullied alot weh.One night i was in a cab on the way to Bursewood Casino (proudly owned by Genting) with Iman and Areena , and a bunch of Aboriginies just drove up next to us at the traffic light and spat at our cab and showed us the finger.I was like wtf wei... now kena spit edi sure lose money.And back home i wont even touch public transport... but here i have to take 2 buses to uni.Taxis here are insane as well.I remember the first day here with my Mum and we spent 60 ringgit on a 8 KM trip.

Whenever i have a few spare days i like to head down to Curtin University to visit Ian Ananda Iman and the guys. I'm telling you clubbing here is sooo much better as compared to KL.When we are hanging it's always damn fun lor.

Anyway a big shoutout to Adrian Tan Chia Chi , fucker has been bugging me to blog since i got here.Please enjoy the pictures and check for updates often.Good night guys.

My New Home!

My Desk!(Dorm Daze is crap btw and yes thats Melissa in the calendar)

My Room Wei!

Kings Park , The view from Areena's balcony (don't think dirty ok! balcony rofl)

Muizz Ananda and Ian ( Ian looks damn stupid eh? )

I'm still skinny eh? Notice i'm bald?

Ian Me Areena and Muizz

Always a party when we're together!

p.s - i miss you Chyuen

2005-10-24T03:03:00.000+08:00

An Update on Life...

Hi...Blogging cause my head is filled with thoughts,memories and feelings and i just cant keep em to myself anymore...

The past few weeks have been a potpurri of emotions.Ranging from sadness to joy,dissapointment to happiness.Life has not been going so well yet the occasional smile and kind gesture by a friend or a random person makes things feel less complicated and easier to bear with.

For starters,sadness... im leaving for Australia on Wednesday... Yes this Wednesday the 26th.There are so many things i wanna learn,and wanna share and explore myself.Somewhere peaceful and conducive without any distractions where i can sort out my life and think.Rarely do you get a chance to sit and THINK in our busy daily routines in KL.Hopefully this experience will illuminate many of my suspicions and enlighten my thoughts and questions.

Many things happened in the last few weeks.For starters I shall blog about my long lost friends once again found.My beloved KAOSIANS.Lucc(Wazir),Alvin and Elendil (Sam) and occasionally , Mr.Ashadee!.No we dont gather and play Ragnarok like the old days,but we Dota and stuff.... u know lah,just hang around.Watching movies and insulting each other.Been awhile since ive seen these people so i guess its fun to finally see them again.Always smiling and always talking bout thought provoking issues and stuff-lah.Well the 4 of us attended another Ragnarok friend-that-became-real-life-friend's birthday party!!Our lovely and beautiful Miss Anasthasia Tanios(Dora).Pictures will be inserted later.At the party,which was a grand formal event was held at the Times Square Hotel!Talk about posh shit.We got lost in KL but eventually made our way there.When we arrived and we saw miss Anasthasia our eyes were like @@" coz she was stunning and gorgeous.The party was great the company was good.Ended the night with drinks at Telawi Street Bistro where our dear Sam,tried to hit on my high school senior!Laughs and Love.What a great night.Yesterday we went for Transporter 2 at MidValley and the show was oozing of bullshit.Ended up in VA where we Dota-ed and at Hartamas Square for dinner.A round of pool at Players after.The funniest thing happened at Hartamas Square.I called the waiter over and said "Boss bagi saya "shuet cha" satu" and the dude replied "OK Boss nak ais tak".Couldn't stop laughing.

I know whats on your minds my dear readers."Jia how is Melissa".She's great la.Were so much in love and everything is going smoothly.She is as pretty as always and I havent grown an inch.Abit shy-lah when we go out shopping or for meals together.Everyone we meet are like "OMG Jia she is SOOOOOOO much taller than you" and it makes me feel like a midget hehe.But whats height when love is concerned?Merely a minute little detail anyway Melissa is taller than like 75% of the Malaysian population lah so I dont really give a shit.Anyway heres an interesting story.After pasar malam with me in Bangsar today as Mel was driving home,My dear friends,Shafeeq,Blu and Roshan,Or better known as the writers of the ingenious blog http://stoopid-people.com drove past Mel's car,started honking at her and threw paper at her out their windows...Ahh maturity at it's finest.I love them all,but I wonder how did I survive like 4 years in high school with them and still be sane.

Now,The moments of extreme sadness.I recieved a phonecall from Jia Meei on the 19th of this month at exactly 8.30 pm.She was crying and i barely could make up what she was saying.After she calmed down she told me her story,A distant friend of mine,Eunice Lee had just passed away.Although I was not close to her,the news was like a slap on the face.I asked JiaMeei to cool down as I tried to hold my tears back.After I put down the phone,I closed my eyes,and prayed.For the first time in weeks I prayed.For Lee Tung,For Eunice's family for everyone she knew and everything she held dear.She was a Gem and was too perfect for this world.On the same day, Our fist lady,Datin Paduka Seri Endon Mahmood passed away as well impacting Countries and Nations across Asia.

Now the dissapointment.I really miss my 12 years + China gang.Ian,Adrian,Chun Kiat,Edmund and all lah.Havent spent ANY time with them lately.Kinda miss them but I guess everyone is caught up in their own lives.

Well guys its time to sleep.Will update in Melbourne.My new home perhaps?

For the Stoopid-People

Alvin,Sam,Wazir and Me =p

KAOS!

Thats it for now.Take care guys.Will update as soon as I can in Aus.

2005-10-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

A Tribute....

Yesterday was a fucking sad day for many of us...A dear friend of us had passed away... This is my tribute to her...

Eunice Lee...Even though we were just hie and bye friends...You impacted so many people...Changed their lives and gavme them love...And you might not realise this...But those u people you made an impact on made an impact on me...Indirectly u changed my life...

Eunice Lee...I might now have been close but i knew who u were...You was pretty...Smart...A servent of God...You was too perfect for this world...Too Damn Perfect...

Eunice Lee... I know right now,that you are in Heaven...I do not think it... I know it...

Lau Lee Tung...I'm deeply sorry for your loss...

As you all read this...I hope that u will give our dear Eunice 1 moment of Silence...A minute of prayer for her...For she was special and was destined for soooo much more in life....

Eunice even though i was not close...You parting made me cry,and pray that the ones who love you most are ok...

19/10/2005...A day we will always remember and pray for you...God Bless You....

2005-09-30T13:20:00.000+08:00

Home....

Tat Wei is going home to Batu Pahat today....I really envy him... I wish I could go home too...

2005-09-27T00:16:00.000+08:00

Sevens!
For Sher....

7 Things That Scare me

1. Cockroaches
2. Midgets
3. Mel when she has PMS
4. Sher when she has PMS
5. Running out of clean underwear
6. Growing even shorter than i already am
7. My Eng.Lit. teacher....

7 Things I Like Most About Me

1. Err...My hair
2. My Atheletic ability
3. My 12 years + China gang
4.My dear A+B nerds
5.My Melissa Tan
6.My lame jokes
7.My other friends who dont fall into the above categories
8. Add another one lah =p My KAOS-ian friends from RO that still keep in touch with me =p

7 Most Important Things In My Room.

1. First off let me say that i barely have 7 things in my room lolz
2. My PC
3. My underwear drawer
4. My ashtray
5. My bottle of drinking water
6. My 2 inch thick mattress
7. My air conditioner

7 Random Facts About Me

1. I never have enough money
2. I eat like a starving pig
3. I am kinda short... is 5'6" short?
4. I smoke like a chimmeny
5. I check out every girl i see
6. I used to attend drama classes at the Actor's Studio
7. I check out every guy i see

7 Things I Can Do

1. Eat
2. Insult People
3. Insult people's parents
4. ermm Run
5. Drive endlessly without a destination
6. Sleep without moving at all
7. Tell lame jokes....Most of them directed at your mom

7 Things I Can't Do

1. Take a shit upside down
2. Get my computer to work well
3. Get Melissa to listen to me
4. Study
5. Concentrate in class
6. Resist checking out a hot girl
7. Resist insulting someone after they do something stupid lolz

7 Things I Say The Most

1. FUCK!!!
2. MAHAI!!!!
3. Dear... am I REALLY THAT short??
4. FUCK YOU!!!
5. FUCK U AND I HOPE U FAIL SPM
6. Mahai... why u so stupid fucking wan arh?
7. Wah that girls ass can fry egg wei mahai!!

7 Celeb Crushes

1. Hohoho banyak... Lindsey Lohan
2.Mary-Kate Olsen
3.Ashley Olsen
4.Mary-Kate AND Ashley Olsen
5.That yellow dinosaur from Barney...
6.Actually not that banyak lolz
7.

7 Things I Hate Most About Me

1. My height
2. My fucking skinny body
3. My inability to budget cash
4. My smoking....Have to stop lahhh
5. My foul mouth also has to stop =.=
6. My inability to control Melissa =.= its so obvious that I am the bitch in this relationship
7. My short legs....If abit longer sure can run faster bah!

7 People I'd Love To See Do This

1. Jun
2. TW
3. Joxx
4. Stoopid-people.blogspot.com
5. Sher-Vin
6. Mary-Kate Olsen
7. Err....Barney's sister?

Ok Sher i hope ur happy...Till next time~!

2005-09-26T01:32:00.000+08:00

Uneventful Yet Meaningfull...

Hey guys~!As the title suggests the day was mundane...Had breakfast with Shaf and Blu...Check out their blog by the way its http://Stoopid-People.blogspot.com ...Hours of endless laughter there...After that was dim sum with Js,Pui Ee the hippo,Mel, Tat Wei and Jun(Mels' Brother) and Chyuen (My Brother)...After that i was off to Mel's place where we spent hours talking and even more hours sleeping...I really enjoy the hours we spend talking...

Anyway the whole point of this post was to show off the medals i won yesterday at the HELP University College Sports Carnival...Enjoy =D

Hahaha the gold one damn shiny wei~!!!

till next time...see you folks!

2005-09-25T06:12:00.000+08:00

A Smile for You...

Again i would like to apologize for not updating as often as i should...Life is hectic and full of surprises and its kinda hard to fit daily blogging into my current agenda...If i do post however i promise to make them meaningful and full of emotion...
This week has been great...Absolutely great...Caught STOMP on tuesday with Melissa...Sometimes seeing a smile on the face of your loved one gives you this feeling...Somewhat satisfactory and im glad she enjoyed it...
College has been tough...I got monday off from the doctor...It seems that I have high blood pressure...That explains the sudden feverish feelings and headache attacks I have been getting as of late...He says its due to too much stress...
Throughout this week however...I have been clacking off big time...My nights are filled with Dota and sleep is little and precious...It's been great spending time with my old KAOS friends -avin- and Lucc and even Marcus from australia...(By the wayy add me in BlueServer3 nickname -Meow-)...
But the icing on my great week cake came today during the HELP University College Sports Carnival...The night before(Friday) was spent worrying about how i would do and if i could still run and thoughts tend to keep you awake...So i had 0 hours of sleep while facing the biggest hurdle in my entire college life so far...I represented the A-Levels in the 100m sprint,200m sprint,4x100m relay and the 4x400m relay...To cut a long story short i came home with 3 silver and one gold medal...=D...A-Levels won overall of course...And call me arrogant but i just couldn't stop feeling like the silent hero of today...
Anyway i would like to thank my beautiful darling Melissa Tan for being there by my side the whole day...In the hot sun sitting patiently on the bleachers and cheering the A-Levels on...I Love You dear =p!!
Well guys it's 6am and I have run out of things to write about...Sorry for the not-so-perfect english but you guys have to understand...I happen to be typing while trying not to fall asleep on the keyboard...Until next time =D Keep Smiling...

2005-09-13T01:04:00.000+08:00

A Picture Says A Thousand Words....

I Love You....

2005-09-12T01:24:00.000+08:00

Many Clouds...Many Linings...

Hey guys so sorry I have not been updating.Living alone takes some time to get used to.I have been so bogged down with work and college that i barely have time in front of my computer.The last few weeks have been filled with love,laughter,and emotions that i have almost forgotten re-ignited.Let me start by saying doing laundry sucks!And working for extra money is fun if you are in the company of the friends that u are most close to.
Learning how to live on a fixed amount of money is not easy.Especially for me cause i used to have a bottmless allowance.I think i have learned to budget way better and I guess I am at least 10 times more imdependant as compared to what I was before.But overall the hardest and most annoying thing about living alone is doing laundry.The worse part is that i do not have an iron.
Anyway more on life less on living...My dad's birthday just passed and on the day before it i was talking to him in the car on the way home...He said these words that changed my life and my outlook on things so much and I was so damn close to tears..."son , I know that I have never been a good father,but even parents make mistakes...All I want for my birthday is for you to forgive me..." he then handed me a poem composed by Kipling,
It goes something like this:-

If you can keep your head when all about you

Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;

If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,

But make allowance for their doubting too;

If you can wait and not be tired my waiting,

Or,Being lied about,don't deal in lies,

Or,being hated,dont give way to hating,

And yet don't look too good,nor talk to wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;

If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;

If you can meet with triumph and disaster

And treat those two imposters just the same;

If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken

Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,

Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,

And stoop to build 'em out with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings

And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,

And lose,and start again at your beginnings

And never breathe a word about your loss;

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew

To serve your turn long after they are gone,

And so hold on when there is nothing in you

Except the Will which says to them:"Hold On"!;

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,

Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;

If neither foes not loving friends can hurt you;

If all men count with you,but none too much;

If you can fill the unforgiving minute

With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -

Yours is the earth and everything that's in it,

And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

My dad...another person that i failed to impress and has come short of his expectations so many times...I rarely say i love you But i do...

Ok time for the happy things that happened =D.Last friday we celebrated Jin Soon's birthday at Good Evening Bangkok and Fridays~!!What a great evening.For the first time in weeks i felt happy.I guess forgetting about my problems for a few hours really helped me.

Here are some pictures...

The Brotherhood =D

Me and My Wife...

ps. look where her hands are going =p KANTOI!!

Me and the Pig~!!!

Me and My Hippos...

All for sale please contact me for further details...

After too many drinks...Fuck wei my teeth damn yellow...They are as blond as my hair...

What a wonderful night...Filled with laughter and happyness and no one was unhappy...NO ONE!!!not a frown in sight..How i wish everynight was like that night...

Anyway,after thinking about the day i realised something of uber importance...Where I lacked in family I gained in friends...My friends are the people that bring me through life,that nurtured me into the person I am today...Without my friends i would not be here today...Thanks to everyone and everything that made me who I am today....

The TaiLo , The Bling Bling , The ChauHai and The Beng

Friends for 12 years....And definately 50 more....

Comment of the day :Jia your blog changed my outlook and perspective on life...Thank You (anonymous)

Add me to msn and friendster : lee_tlc_88@hotmail.com

Well guys thats all for today...All in all i would like to say that life is having constipation and these few weeks have been less shitty as compared to the other weeks...Live life and love live for without love we are merely animals.

2005-08-30T00:18:00.000+08:00

Thoughts....

Living alone gives you much time to think...About life,love and shit in that category...Well i guess that im learning and gaining much needed experience and maturity from my solitude in this tiny room in Bangsar...
Thinking about my home back in Mutiara Damansara...I realise that the thing i miss the most is my brother...I miss yelling my fucking brains out when he screws up...I miss sharing clothes with him...I miss watching TV with him and u know lah...Doing brotherly shit...He was slightly depressed from lack of family love before i left and i only pray that it has not got any worse...This is a promise i make to everyone who reads my blog...I will do my best to fulfill my responsibilities as a brother...No matter how hard or no matter what the cost...
Anyway i went to swensons with Angie,Pearly and Choi Lin today...I was feeling tired and moody so i guess i kinda threw my mood at everyone...But seeing Pearly after so long reminded me of the poem that she wrote for me years and years ago...When my hair was still black...

This is her story....

Broken Friendship...

Friends for so many years,
Went though so many things.
We shared our thoughts and dreams,
We were there for each other,
Love and trust were our foundation.

Something happened...
What we spent building throughout the years,
Was lost in just one night,
A night I will remember forever...
Trust was broken , Tears were shed,
It hurt cause i knew...
Things would never be the same.

Only time can tell,
Will we ever be the way we used to be?
I never wanted to say goodbye...
To my partner i once called....
My Friend...

I watched u grow...and u always amaze me...We fight yes...Maybe too often...But we always come through...In everyone's eyes they see you as so many different things...But to me you will always be MY little Pearly Ng Li Leng...

2005-08-28T02:12:00.000+08:00

Stuck In This Shithole...
Sorry for not updating as much as i would like...These few days have een emotionally and physically tiring...I still dont get why people are so against me and Mel being together...But i guess that life and love are both not easy roads to travel down...
Today i woke up...Swallowed my pride and went home to attempt to talk to my mother...I miss home...But as my title suggests...Things didnt go very well...After many tears and raised voices the decision is to let me be by myself...Stuck in my room to "reflect" on my mistakes...A very sad thing in this world is that people often to find the route of the problem...The big picture...They pick on every small detail but fail to see what happened to build up to what has happened...It's like focusing on the Mona Lisa's eyes instead of grasping its overall beauty...
Sad,depressed and lonely I am...Wanting to go home...But it seems like an impossible dream...All i want is love and compassion from my family...All i get is anger,smite and isolation...It's not easy to be me...

2005-08-24T02:36:00.000+08:00

Simple things...

It's a wonder how people go through life ignoring little little things that make us happy...or happier at least. Today was a simple day with awesome, temporary, yet uplifting incidents and happenings...here's my story...

When I woke up I went straight to Mel's house...I was tired...therefore I slept...Lying down on her bed while falling asleep she gently joined me and put her arms around me lovingly. Immediately I felt at peace and fell asleep...

The caress of someone you love...simple, small and often unapprieciated...Well after I woke we went to Swensen's! Oh the joy of having ice cream for lunch; every child's dream. Anyway after our lunch we headed down to Pasar Besar Taman Tun as Mel wanted to bake brownies...

I asked her this, "Dear, why you so semangat wanna bake suddenly?" She smiled. And she said, "They are for you, dear. Just in case you get hungry when you are alone in your room at night." Care...Compassion...

Another 2 great things we often overlook...Anyway after bringing Mel's brother for a round of DotA and a long walk back to her place, a quick shower and some talking time with Mel, we baked our brownies...Brownies filled with the Love, Care and the thoughts of someone I love...On the way back to my room while thinking of my day...I realised I was happy...it might die off tomorrow though, but at least...for today...I WAS happy =)

I love you, Melissa Tan...

Another touching and very emotional thing happened today...I recieved an e-mail from someone close and dear to me...It left me almost in tears as an extreme amount of sincerity and thought went in to it...I have asked her permission and have decided to paste it here...This is her story...

Dearest Jia, or Jia Dearest..however you like to hear it,

I'm sorry for all those hurtful words I've ever hurled at you, especially last night when you seemed to have hit the bottom. How you said I hurt you when you loved me all so much. It hurt so much to know you were hurting and more so that I seemed to be the cause of it all..my words rather, you have no idea..because I hope you know deep down inside all I want is to see you happy.

Jia, I know you're going through the roughest of rough patches and life has most certainly not been kind. I have no idea how over 5 months I rate below Angie in your life..she seems so divine, the ways she's made a difference..and I'm so mortal in comparison. I know over the past half year we've seen each other through a Sara, a Mitchell and an eventual Melissa, with stories of Jer, Adrian Lim, Ian Soo, Mmilidzi Chris, Summer School people, newfound freakyB friends and the many people in and about college along the way.

I can't quite seem to dissect and decipher how and why things have happened for you the way it did..your mum, your once-upon-a-time family by name. I just know that what He takes from you, He returns better. And from a non-believer, I'm telling you that you have to have faith. No matter how hard it gets. Trust that the Lord, your shepherd, will guide you toward the right path. God's loving kindness is greater than life itself.

You have no clue how proud I was to see you drop smoking. Or when I was just worried sick when you were admitted due to suspected dengue. Sure, sometimes I'm pathetic at showing you how I care, but I know you know that I do. I knew from the start that the three-hour phone calls were an investment, I knew they'd change both of us, me and you. You opened up doors I never knew existed, you showed me that there was so much more to life than that sunshine-filled globe..there were many deep, dark caverns..and you shone your lamp on them. The world where gangsterism does really exist..It was heart-wrenching to have to hear you break down in tears by the poolside at University Towers at that godforsaken hour. Much more so when Chyuen texted me about your being admitted to DSC. Mel and I, we were talking..and I told her..never mind what I told her.

I was more than glad when you were there at my point of breaking down at the stairwell the other time. I'm sorry I've declined your numerous invitations for lunches and such but I hope you understand where I come from.

Pardon my train of extremely incoherent thoughts, I'm still worn out from last night's 0300 Hrs bedtime. Because I woke up at 8.30am, spoke to a couple of humans before going to college to collect my results. They weren't the best, but they were fair. My second aunt brought lunch and collected her stuff that we brought back from her daughter in Aussie. Had to go to my youngest aunt's then to pass her things we bought for her. I've been poofed.

I'm glad you sought solace and comfort in words by starting a blog. Your most recent entry, your second rather, was a piece that moved me. I feel so unfit for such praise, shit face or not. You indeed have a flair for words and the pen is definitely in your control. I know you're capable of much more though, and through your rants, push yourself to hold on tighter to the pen for each stroke it makes.

You've been there for most of my downs and I hope I've done justice to that. To making your 3-person list. To being there for you enough. Words are hard to express aptly what you mean to me..but do know you've made a lasting impact that I'll take through life. Thanks for the confidence you've always had in my abilities, your praise about my supposed intelligence..everything. We've shared our ups, little or large they may be. And I hope you've learnt, benefitted, and grown through whatever life's thrown at us.

You're a deep guy, and I hope you search deep within yourself and note that your capabilities simply hit the sky. The chips are down but strive to make your million, by working in the direction that you need to..

..and I'll be there for you. Always.

I'll never match up to what and who Melissa will always be. But I've accepted you, flaws and all, and sometimes when I don't sieve through my words it appears like last night- I make you look like a fucking loser. But I know you're not one. And do know that I think that way. I hope we remain friends, through time. Our keeping in touch has been too damn costly, but it's well worth so long as you're okay.

I hope you find your silver lining soon, because life's been so so so stormy of late and it's something you so richly deserve. When all the dark seems to cloud you, look up and I'll be there shining like a star..just for you.

Hang in there, and don't let this tsunami drown you. I know you have what it takes to get past this, and I want you to make this life a good one..for yourself..for the ones you love. Press on and make things happen Jia. Make me proud.

Love you,
Sher Reen

People...especially people who love us with all their hearts and only wat the best from us often want us to want the same things that they want...Sher you are, as they say in the movies, "The Shit!" or "Da Bomb". Words that spout from your mouth are so real...so true...and so sincere...

You being there for me has helped me through so much...from student council elections, lessons in love, pain, suffering and joy...You give me another reason to smile...As I write this my eyes are red for tears are fighting to be let go. But you taught me to be strong. Sher, you once told me that I must find the silver lining in every situation. But you fail to realise..

.. that YOU were that silver lining in most of them...

I Love You too...

Lim Sher-Reen 2005

2005-08-23T03:09:00.000+08:00

Sigh...an uneventful day...
Nothing much happened today I guess...another day at Mel's place...lunch with a different Mellissa before that..It was nice to catch up with Mellissa though as she is one person that I've known for so long yet we did not really keep in touch. The bitching was fun and the food was good...
Since nothing particularly earthshaking happened in my life today...I think it's time to tell the world about the 3 ladies that changed my life and evolved me into the almost-decent person I am now. This is my way of saying Thank You for everything I guess...

First off~!!
Angie Li Yuet Jia
Gie,
Thanks for filling in what my mother left out- Care, Compassion and Love for me...
Because of you im in college...
Because of you i didnt drop out of high school...
Because of you i haven't jumped off a building...

I LOVE you...And i know i dont tell you that i do very often but remember...I'm always thinking of you and everything youu have done for me...

Secondly~!
Sher-Reen,Lim
Dua Chi,
Thanks for always showing me the silver lining. The life left in the graveyard...however deep I buried myself you were always there with a huge shovel, ready to dig me out...
Thanks for the laughs, the 3-hour phone calls, for introducing me to a group of people that have changed me in so many ways. Thanks for giving me the SHIT face the first time you saw me...

You changed my life Sher...And I will always LOVE you for that...

Lastly~!
Tan Li Hsia,Melissa
Baby Dear Sweetheart Sayang,
Through this shitty time that I'm going through...I knew I had a partner in you to help me through it. I never EVER tell you that I LOVE you enough...That when you smile I forget everything and I'm reminded that I'm happy I have you...5 months and you have impacted me more than almost everyone or anything...When I'm with you nothing else matters..When you are away all I want is you to hug and to hold...We both know that everything is against us, but through our little fights and disagreements my feelings for you just grow stronger...I LOVE You, Dear...
More than anyone can ever imagine...

Well that's it from me...Why dont you guys sit back a moment and think about the people...or even person that has changed you and write a Friendster testimonial for them. Sometimes all they want is for you to remind them how much you love them...Who are your 3 special people?

2005-08-22T03:58:00.000+08:00

Phew... Finally my first post....

Well people...if you came to read about birds, sunshine and ice cream cones on a hot day...you have visited the wrong blog...This is a blog belonging to a seemingly carefree and happy person when in truth he's suffering and hurting on the inside...

Nope...rarely anything happy here.

Sorry for the crappy introduction and first post but figuring out how to use a blog is damn complicated...as you can see at the "About Me" section on the sidebar ----> I happen to be slightly mentally incapable of operating a blog by myself.. =)

As you read my day by day ramblings, I hope that you learn to apprieciate life and all its little little details that we often overlook. Such as a clean comfortable bed to lie upon before we whisper off into slumber. Your parents who provide unconditional love and a roof over your heads. Your pet guinea pig or little puppy which you neglect to feed. A shower with hot water and a toilet bown to lay your golden buttocks upon while disposing of yesterday's digested lunch. A car to drive around. The bottomless allowances that we finish in a day or two. The way your girlfriend smiles and everything in the world seems right.

Well my readers I had all of the above, yet I was not happy enough and took everything for granted. I stopped loving the things I loved, caring for the people I care about, telling the people whom I love the most that I love them...

Well thats my introduction and first post. A lil' long winded if you ask me...but I would like to remind everyone that life's lessons are learnt the hard way...

Please...tell your mom that you love her tonight...I know I didn't before I left her...